manang

happy new year tabulas!

wow. this is actually my first post for the year. 

so what compelled me to post something today? weirdness of reality. reality that i am old.

earlier today, our OBGyne lecturer discussed about cervical ca. in the middle of the discussion, he told us about 'straight trippers'. we were discussing about how younger age for first sexual contact and multiple partners increased the risks for earlier cervical cancer development.

apparently. im old. old because i did not readily know this term. not that i plan to use it anytime soon, i just want to be aware of such things.

this is not a good topic. i'll end this now.

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alexis was able to read the alphabet, recognize colors, numbers and shapes since last month.

my problem is how i continuously laugh when she says 'kokagon' instead of 'octagon' - even if i do correct her, im giving her positive reinforcement for something wrong. haha! 

kasi she's so cute.

manang

my little girl is 2 years old today.

wow. just two years ago im this person who cried from a C-sec stitch pain. i was allergic to a long-acting pain med they gave me then. so technically, there was no pain med and the pain got even worse from my body's hypersensitivity reaction.

they fixed my meds mga 2 days after. (-_-')

things i did around this time two years ago:

1. begging the nurse to let me eat something - i was NPO (nothing per orem) for more than 24 hours

2. sucking water from a cotton ball - this is the only thing they allowed me to have. my gulay! can u imagine the hypoglycemic state i was in? im not pretty to be around with when im hungry.

3. my baby girl pooped for the first time - the first time i found out green poop is a good sign

4. breast sores from breast feeding. they were huge but seems to have too little milk for her!

5. mixed feelings of shock (im really a mom now), fear (i'll be taking all my med exams without attending lectures for the prelims), and joy (my baby girl really thinks she needs me)

6. slept in a middle of a conversation with my doctor.

7. was silent most of the time. just crying - more like flowing - from the pain. later we found out i was allergic to the stupid meds that was supposed to alleviate, not aggrevate, my freaking surgical slice!

haha! i loved every moment of it - otherwise i wont have stories to tell people

my baby girl is 2 years old. she can now jump, run, say 'sexy' and point at body parts at will.

im happy.

hubby will be home in 10 days!

manang

i dont know any of the DJs personally. im just a fan.

its just friggin sad!

i always thought of NU as a constant. i respected the music they played. i loved music because of them. i started listening to NU at 9 years old - at that age i thought NU had the best playlist. 

im now 24. with a kid, almost a doctor and i still listen listened to NU.

wow. wala nang NU. cliche pero parang hindi totoo. 

salamat po NU107! na sa inyo parin ang respeto ko.

manang

my baby cries whenever i sleep earlier than her. its just so exhausting to be running around med school that i need to be asleep by 9 or 10pm. i wake up 3/4am so that may be why i feel exhausted in the first place.

toxic ako. gusto ko umepal ng mas grabe. 

manang

translation: fungus.

this is what best describes me right now. 

i love that i passed medical block. gosh. im really 3rd year. i just have to wait 2-3 years and im a real doctor already - license and all. haha! by the time i graduate, my little girl will be 3 1/2 y/o. wow right?

i feel old. not depressed. just old. 

my husband will be coming home in a month's time and i am (here comes the cheesy-ness) so excited! haha! 

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yep, magtititigan lang kami.

manang

finals week list

1. im 24 and a mother. 

2. im a 24-year-old-student-mother.

3. i am awesome.

4. i call on the power of the universe! i will score awesomely high this finals week. 

5. i will be on surgical block next sem! 

6. on surgical block: more free time when hubby gets home! 

7. repeat and re-read from step one hanggang magkatotoo.

edited 10 seconds later:

woah! just saw the new tabulas layout. me likey!

manang

i havent written a song in years. literally. years.

last song i made was for my baby girl when she was only in my uterus. i think she hates it pa kasi she moves away when i sing it. maybe she remembers how i wake her up with it..

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if you still didn't know, the you-still-love-her-break-up-albums are here: maroon 5 and Parokya ni edgar's latest albums. sad people make great songs. maybe that's why im not writing yet.. hmm.

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listening to the eels tomorrow morning album. was listening to 'spectacular girl' and i was like: sila pala kumanta nun. 

loser diba? ngayon ko lang sila nalaman. pero i'm sure narinig ko na sila somewhere naman.

great album. great for reviewing siguro kasi most of the words are garbled up. i tend to sing along kasi when im reviewing (procrastinating?) so i end up exhausted from singing.

anyway, i like their sound they have in-love songs pa that are just right and not too mushy

i am now a fan