i dont like sinigang. i cook it well though, or so jef says.. maybe it has something to do with him starving (and/or cash-broke) if i suddenly decide not to cook anymore.

even so, it's what i prepared for tonight's dinner. its even hot-spicy. just the way he likes it. just right for him to enjoy.

inner jai: yuchhhhh
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this saturday, jef and i will be travelling with his friends to philadelphia. nothing special. just attending a flower show. seriously.

will that be boring? i dont know.
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we went to steam town the other day. a historic site for trains. really cool place. i enjoyed it.
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damn im bored big time. enough typing.

ive googled my name many times before.

today i've googled myself again. big mistake.
i realized that despite my given name being masculine and all, i found that i have a namesake named: jairus laway. seriously. i didnt realize there was a laway surname. i wouldnt be caught married to him now, would i? we'd be like mr. and mrs. jairus laway. literally. errr. bad jai.

saw the kite runner movie yesterday.. nearly-accurate as the book and still as moving.

my writing skills are slowly being depleted.
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benta toh: nkita ko sa post ni tabulas friend: deej
Bb. Pilipinas, Janina San Miguel


damn. i didnt have the guts to finish watching the clip.

patay na si tomskie. nalaman ko lang kanina.

they say death is a part of life.
fine, but its a scary part of it.

im 22 years old and already i have 2 close friends dead. the first one to go was jc. he was my age. we went to high school together. i had a crush on him back then. he was part of the 'in' crowd. we loved him and his cute smile.

its ironic to learn of tomskie's passing away through friendster. yes, it is a place where friends keep in touch and exchange news about each other... but damn. tomskie's dead.

tomskie was part of our makeshift combo band in the province. he was our group's back-up singer. my boy best friend is our lead, im on bass. masters I and G on guitars and our drummer boy biggy. we would all laugh at his jokes or the weird voices he makes up during practice sessions before a gig. now, we wouldnt be a band again. "uncle doloroso" lost one.

(goodness. referring to him with 'he WAS...' still feels uncomfortable)

tomskie was only sometimes drunk. most of the time, his speech would turn incoherent but he wouldnt be drunk. he would still be sober (i think) even after gulping down 5 bottles of RH.

you were a great friend tomskie.

if you were to magically appear, this would be my words:
Oi pota, anu namang kababalaghan yang ginagawa mo?
at bakit moko minumulto?
tangina mo! nagpakamatay ka raw? lakas ng topak mo ah! pa-dagat effect ka pa.. heinaku. gagrdaweyt ka nanga lang, ng swimming ka pa? tas iniwan mo pa yung gf mo. tama bang multuhin mo sya palagi sa mga last words mo sa kanya?
salbahe ka at alam mo yun.
bat moko tinatawanan? tangina, lam mo namang mahal ka namin!
sige! magrakenrol ka jan.. hintayin mo kami at magkakasama rin ang barkada!
tagay!

bye tomskie. pagdarasal kita.

my numerology read:
"Often you are perceived as odd, controlling or self-centered by others. However often these are traits are forgiven as others also recognize that your talents outshine those of the ordinary mortal."

next stop, world domination... after holy week, that is